February 3

It is Groundhog Day. I love the movie. I thought about what day would I want to live over and over again. Then I thought that what if I am living each day over and over again. I keep distancing myself from people. I keep creating conflict. I continue to stay in school. I always manage to destroy every great romance I have. I keep moving from place to place. I even wear the same clothes, same shoes complete with same hair style.

My existence IS Groundhog Day. My life will be forever stuck on the repeat button until I finally get it right. But I don’t know what ‘right’ is. When will I have that Bill Murray a-ha moment and begin enjoying life for what it is? All I know is that I admit my pattern and I don’t know how to get to the third of February.